randomness ....... times ....... fickle ....

it is very hard to believe the change in time... it shows good things...bad things...worse and worst... all forms of bad are thrown in front of us... we cry out to ourself.. sometimes to others too .. but then the heart has always one thought in mind .. y do things happen to us... y do we keep on facing troubles and others seem to make a pleasant living in themselves... the mind makes a lot of decisions and the heart refuses to take them.. we vent out on our buddies ... we shout at them and make a mockery of things... and even we swear at them for not being with us at our times of need... we make a long list of complaints at the person whom we love.. we shout..we cry...we laugh and we sulk ....and this part - the sulking thing .. the after effects of love,battle, fights... and much more makes a huge part of our life... many of us life sulking and some dun sulk.. some for a longer duration and some jus wrap it off in a jiffy .... some incidents in our lives are at our eye-fronts every time.. and some are off our last thoughts... some things lie college... friends ... the pet names... the wars... the food.. the drinks - booze ... the smokes.. the roadside tapris... and much more all play their role in our life.. and none of us are exempted of these situations. .. everyone of us face it ... see it ... blurt it .. and then of course remember it when we miss them... this is what is the time-cycle... the changes and flanges of life... we love making mistakes... every time we look back into those cute emotions and times that we left behind just in the wake of another new day and a passing away dusk, we are enlightened by the factuals that happened .... the makes and breaks of past has an enduring effect on the present and then the truth or we can say the realizations are done... we see a lot and do a lot ... much aware and much unaware... so this is what life is ... it changes every moment ... every second ... every blink makes us think different .. and no two blinks are the same .... times have changed and it feels good to look back into those memories .. feels like reliving them ... atleast we want to go thru them in a summary ...

with the times changing and bigger and better things expected to come... we all shackle under this change and we all feel insecure... changing times make us feel bad-worse-good..everything ... the past has a turmoil over us... we go crazy ... we go mad ..... we all have seen stuffs happening around us ... we all see things with others .... and keeping ourself strong amongst the crowd is tough ... things get easy when we forget... but not all things are to be forgotten. ....

i know m talking crap... i m just not in the normal self ... somethings are really taking my attention off me .... things will settle down ... they should ... :) .... take care .... be good....

the long lost friend is back again...

sometimes i imagine life without the gadgets that we use today... life will be a hell in their absence.. it will be like chucking the heart out of u ...sometimes we curse ourselves that we are up to date on our mail or we r not regular in touch with friends cuz we dun have a net connection...but really this whole thing of socializing and keeping in contact with people is one prime reason for networking sites... orkut makes us free in searching people ... and thats what u need when ur a long lost person in this world and u wanna come in terms with ur buddies again.... all u need to do is to create an orkut or a fb account ... and then thats it ... u are into the virtual world of reality ...

one fine day ... after i return from job and i open my orkut after many weeks and to my bloody surprise i find an old pal of mine has sent me request here ... getting all excited to talk to him ... i immediately took his mail id and then the next moment i mailed him and then i feel a sense of huge relief of getting back in touch with him after 10 years.. this way these social sites are really putting into people's emotions... this is maybe the best use of networking sites ...

people use ot for various many reasons.. which m not concerned about ... the fact remains the fact that they are social networks ... and now-a-days even a child aged 5 does use his fb for updating his routine ... from constipation to corporates all of us are addicted to some of these ... some form of these..

this friend of mine was in touch with me till 8th grade and then no one knew where he was and what he was doing .. our group tried to track him down and get to him .. all in vain... we tried hi dad's contact .. that too wasn't any useful... all that we knew where that he's somewhere in kolkata doing his masters in chemistry ... so this way i get in touch with him and really it feels good to be like this... its always a pleasure getting back in terms with the person whom u had always wanted to be contact with.... it has been a good day to me.. and hope things go really well ... this way i think i can get in touch with many more of my schoolies...

life is strange .. daily it gives surprises ... dazzles u thru ur nerve but still takes u along and makes u experience the most beautiful memories of life....

the friends and more ...

life has started again ... a new thing .. a new palce and most of many more new people ... m usually a kind of guy who gets in touch with many new friends very fast and very easily ... i love making new friends .. or may i shud put it in the past tense ... i loved making many new friends ... but this new corporate thing is really seeming very strange to me ... m not able to make new friends or maybe m not interested in making new friends .... its usually easy for me to get befriended with people .. again this life is not the same as before... earlier it happened that m in contact with the entire grp .. this time its not the sanme case .. either m changing, which is a huge factor or times are changing ... which again cannot be denied ...
either way this new face of people and being them is great ... kinda the real faces .. the very professional life ... damn professional ... in a way again, this is good ... now i myself dun wanna make a lot of new people .. the more the new people , the more u need to attend to them and the more u tend to loosen with the old ones... and this is really harsh on them ... they seem to take us in the wrong way ... but then change is inevitable ...
life makes us take harsh decisions ... gives us hard times but also people around to fight them ... sometimes its the undeniable existance of the friends which makes us strong ... makes us see thru all tough situations and circumstances of life ...makes us feel the aura against and with us .. the foes..the friends..the families..the figures ... they are play a big role in deciding what actually is our decision ... they may make us strong they may weaken us ... but finally the one who stands us thru all this is the one who will stand us thru much more to come .. life takes visious turns and so does friendship ... u may hate ur friend at this second but then u may hug them the very next moment apologising for ur act ... all this happens to all of us ..

some know how to put them on their back and still walk away unnoticed and harmless.. like nothing ever happend .... but some , those "some" who jus are twisted in these curves are never able to come out of this ... and for them peers are the biggest asset... friendship is a relation that cud spoil everything ... and it is the only relation that cud bring us back from ashes .. and thats y v need these humpy-bumpy people around us ..

*finally m blogging today ... i love blogging ... venting out to people whom i dunno... whom i know .... * .. this is easier .. in many-a-ways ... letting out ourselves on people who are not known to us .. who dont know us .. who have never seen us ... who have nothing to do with our past or the future .. they jus listen to us ... like our diaries ... lively diaries ... they speak to us .. they respond to us .. but they dont hate us ... they dont comment on us .. this is easy and fun ... knowing people on the e-world and then making friends with them ... its good ... its like ... i dunno ...

this is reality ... and this is believable ...
time takes its toll on all of us ...
and i like being played upon by the sands of nature ...

its raining for the past couple of days here ... its freaking aweosme here in faridabd .. temp has dipped from 48 to 28 ... lovely romantic climate ... damn sexy trees shedding leaves .. its cold in nights ... its great in the early-mornings.... its great to go on a walk... :) ...

take care friends ... keep posting .. it will take me time to get back in regular touch ... :) ..

m updating ... that i will be back ...

another 3 months and not even a post ... sorry .. i will try to be regular ... "try to" ...

m updating my status now ..

i m placed in TATA POWER , Faridabad as of now ... joining on 1st june.

m done with the college life .... m missing it sooo much ...

m loving those memories....

everything ..

will get back with many many more details ... and will publish those 31 posts that ar still in drafts ..

love life :) ...

what to name it ... !!!!!!!!!!

its been months , almost 45 days since i made my last post .... m really was not in any mood to blog ... but then i have been brought up again to blog .... no one is the reason behind it ... but just a few self realisations ... not to be told ....some things are better untold ....

let me talk about a few things ....

one of them is lying to your buddies .... the prime rule of lying that has always been is that either you lie very efficiently that you are never caught .... cuz ur close buddy can always spot u lying ... or else dont let ur lie ever get to that person from whom you want it to be kept unknown .... so this way ur buddy never gets to know that u lied and also he wont ever feel bad about it ... cuz buddies are always there for the best .....

now if the case is not so and the friend finds out that u lied to him ... now here is where the we get some differences .... cuz u 've been great buddies all time and even though you never wanted to hurt him, he invariably gets hurt on this .... obviously the friend is not mandating you to tell him every part of ur life or share it with him.... but what a friend expects from you is that you dont lie to him .... never ....

its easier to hide something from ur buddies rather faking it .... such small incidents leave away a big dent in the art of friendship .... and if your friend completely easy taking types...then man ur lucky to have such a friend ...and if not , then ur surely goin to have a tough time explaining him .... obviously it wont take a minute to walk off from the conversation but once u walk off unexplained then it means u walked off the relationship that u shared with him/her till now ....

in any kind of friendship or a relationship , there should be some free space for both the persons ... u cant force someone in the name of care and attachments ... no one is a kid that they cant take care of self ... this is the point in some relationships where you cant hold on to one forever if you dont let down go of ur ego and possessiveness... everyone is possessive for their friends but there is a gentle way of making it known to them .... but if the only way you find to express that is ur rude and wasted behaviour.. then ur gonna end up losing them ... so better stay negligent for sometime than letting go off such wonderful friendships....

in all relationships , there are some strings attached.... strings that decide what u can do, what u cant, how u shud do, and how u shudnt ... and et al .... but when there comes the time to let go off those strings... we shackle ... we tend not to loosen those nots .... cuz we are afraid of losing them ..... but the thing we dunt realise is that the more we let people free and lonely .... they get to miss us more and then is that they realise what they actually had left unnoticed ... so at times keeping strings open, lets others free and also shows our trust on them... the friend needs to realise how much trust do we have on them... and this makes the relationship tick longer than thought and longer than meant for ...

if all of this doesnt make any sense to u ... i wont apologise ... cuz this is not meant for all ... this is sometimes that happens to all of us ... just that some of us blog this down... some write diaries ... some cry it out ... some puff it and boozze it ... some fuck it off ... but at the end there is someone or something that takes its toll on us at such situations ....

amen ....

rendezvous .... chilling cold !!!!!

"Those lovely hands shud always be mine
let alone i make them shine..
the life is full of U and Me ....
lets stay together if possible be .... "

just a random few lines in mind ....

m going home .. chennai ... i dunno if i really wanna go but yeah sometimes it good to have a change ....

stay good ....

strange but true !!!!!!!!!

strange but true .... !!!

in our lives we come across so many surprises ... so many such moments that dazzle us at the first touch and first sight .... and also so many moments of myth that we trust and believe to be true whereas they actually are jus illusions or are manipulated by people .... the december edition of THE WEEK had many such abstracts and myths commonly accepted by people and still on the GO .... so there do exist such modifications and fabricated truths that are kept aloof people or may be people dun even know !! ...

a friend of mine once was cycling on the college roads .... a lone child to his parents ... no siblings .... very restricted friend circle that time .... he wasnt a professional cyclist .... cuz wen he was riding and wen he needed to stop it ... he jus shouted to us , " which brake should i use to stop the cycle " .... now laugh at it .... cuz we mocked him for always and evn today he suffers the poor jokes from us on this ..... so that is how we know him to be .... a great nice person ... a geek in the touch and a thin parallel structure made out of slog wood .... he is so thin that he can manage an excape through the tiniest of the holes.... we used him a ghandhi in disguise on occasions like the independence day mime etc .... gets drunk and spits out some crappy stuffs that obv he doesnt remember ... laughs lot wen he's drunk ...

a few weeks back the iift results were out and from the entire Chattisgarh state der wer only 3 short-listed candidates ... two from my college and one being him .... what a great thing to happen for him ... for all of us ... a great boost to him and a great treat (waiting) for us .... he's really good in apti and all these stuffs .... more than good i can say he manages time well and give proper time to all sections ... really wanted to appreciate him for this feat ... still PI GD to come but i hope and wish he gets thru .... the strange thing here is he doesn't know riding bicycle and is bad at household chores but great person and a great entertainer indeed.... and he's famous in our grp for kalaichifying thala .... he's the one thala is always annoyed off ... he jus pisses him off to no limits ... god he's so spelled in teasing and irritating that .... thala one day may not think twice slapping him ... but THALA is thala ... he different creed in himself ... his ideas r ideal and sticks to them ....

this is a jus randon post .... but i'm getting the touch bak to blogging ... slowly though ,..

new year wishes to all ..