sorry and empty

this post goes in for those who are following me and might have expected to continue with my posts .. but since these hectic exams and gre and stuf i'm not blogging at'll and its a month since i've done any proper blog ..... i have not been following any of the other blogs and even though i wanna comment and see all my favs blog... but m not able to ... m sorry to all of u ...

i want to scribble so much ... but m jus in wait for the exams to get over.... so many of my friends are doin contant posts .... but they are capable of multitasking .. which i real suck at .....

so this may be my last post (may be) ... for a month or more.... or it may even happen that i change my mind and start regular posts ....

so all of u out there ... thanks for the constant visits ... and all followers m really heartful for u ....

bye take care ...

The ... About Me .... TAG

so sorry friends ... i had been under covers for 8 days or so .... wanted to write a lot .. lots are in the drafts ... let me start with rohini's tag ..... this about me tag was nice and i really loved writing this .... 1. i love talking and chit-chatting with people .. an inherent quality ... and i love interacting with new faces ... i can go along with unknown people for hours & hours .... and i love making new buddies ....

2. i love using Sony Ericsson mobiles.. although i've a NOKIA but still .... any day they stand better than the nokias....

3. i'm a freak football fan and that too only after joining college .... cuz the surrounding effect ... i love watching matches ... Chelsea is ma favorite and i wanna see them play at Stamford once ... ... i m a blue thro n thro .... its a zeal seeing them play ...

4. once in my life i would love to meet APJ and Stephen Hawking for their contributions to space science ....

5. internet and gmail are my weakness... Add blogs to them now.... i'm madly addicted to these .... and yeah hell yeah ... Gtalk too ....

6. spite of the fact that i love meeting and making new friends , i love more being alone .... loneliness is my strength .... it energises me .... i'm best when i'm left in my solitude and fantasies ....

7. i dont want to get an arranged marriage ... I wish to be in love with someone and den have a love marriage ... make the happiest moments with her ... (although i know m quite close to the fairy-land )... i always dreamt of getting a cancerian girl ... (nothing related to any1) ... and i wish her name starts with "A" .. and ___________________ .....

8. Many times in my childhood and even few times now I've dreamt like someone pushes me off a huge cliff and then i fall into the valleys .... and there and then i die and its the end of me .... But Trust me, i would really want a sweeter death-written for me .... not like this. ... please ... that will be really harsh on me ....

9. a passion for me is cooking ... and its a hobby ... Another one is driving ... esp bikes .... Reading is myself .... and drenching in rains is just so me .. so so me.. and love that romantics ....

10. and most of all i hate ice creams ... paneer ... cheese ... ghee .... (not sweets...) ... seriously i hate ice creams ....

And off-late i've been irritated by pink colour too .... i hate pink ... and smoking and boozing are my prime hatreds ... evils .....

and in my life i'll try not to eat non-vegetarian food ... at least i'll make it very sure .... avoid it till 99.99 % .. until it costs for my existence ...

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i'm blogging after very long ... expect short posts from me ... seriously gotta prepare for GRE ... my only hope of life ...

:)

The Indian Dream

This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton 3; the third edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton.

wowiee... what a topic man.... what a great one to debate upon... all of us know ... each one has faced it... has seen it.. or atleast wanted to see it ... the free India.. the dream that each one of us have in us .. to have a nation of his choice ... to have a nation of our choice ... to see the nation be like 'America' or like 'china' or like 'Switzerland' ... be free and independent and ruling like a superpower ... tell me one person who doesn't dream his country to flourish in every damn field ... in every damn corner .. in every angle and in every hook ... YES , we all have grown like this.. our parents have grown like this... supporting the nation for everything... our grand-generation has given lives to make us see this future for us.. a nation thats so so better than what we had ....

almost many of the contestants have criticized the nation.. stating that its not worth what it is ... stating that we are losers... stating every damn reason to hate the mother nation.... giving thousand and one reasons for hating this country... for making it a bad place to live on ..... BUT i hate them..hate all those who talk like this .... Y ?????

yeah lemme tell u .... the blog-a-ton topic is "THE INDIAN DREAM" .... it means what we dream our nation to be.... what we would like our nation to look like. .... .. how do we visualize it to be 20 yrs from now ... 50 yrs from nw.... how do we see it for our grandchildren .... ..

i too have a dream .... to be selfish ... to be a selfish patriot ... to be a bloody-selfish patriotic person who just wants everything good for the nation ... just for me ... just for my country ... cuz then only it becomes possible for this nation to develop...develop better ... better than the bloody americans.. the bloody other country .... because all other countrymen are selfish for their country ... they want their country to develop ....

tell me how many us are ready to work and die for the nation ... ask all those fucking-bastards sitting in the silicon valley to come and serve the mother nation .... will they come ???? NO ... they wont ... cuz those assess are paid for their slavery to the americans.... paid in large amounts... and for them the money matters and not the nation .... yes and this outrage in me is jus cuz so many of us are only good enuf to talk.. and talk .. and do nothing ....

now do one more thing ... tell all those people who travel to abroad.. anywhere to go and spit at the roads of america or switzerland ... or germany and france ... no fucking bitch has the guts to that .... none can even think of doing that.... Y ??? cuz those roads are clean .. they follow rules.... but the moment they land at the indira gandhi airport ... they will come out and sit in a taxi .. open the window and spit out all the shit that they had in their mouth during the tour .... motherfucking assess... WHY ??? why do people become so negligent for the home nation... why cant we try and clean our nation.. y cant we atleast give a try to it ???? NO ONE will come forward to do this.....

have u ever given a thought what would have happened if Narayana murthy had left the country in search for a better life for him... just imagine ... WE would have lost one of the world's leading IT sector ... make him our idol to success .... really i thank Mr. Murthy .....

"kyunki, apne ghar ke safai mein haat kon gande kare" .....

(tr :" no one wants to dirt their hand for cleaning own home") ....

we have the highest number of population next to China ... and still we cant get above them... cuz the only reason that lies behind this is that we are not so sincere to the parent nation ...

1. each one of us dreams to have the best governing body at the centre ... but none of us has the freaking gut to step up and enter politics ..... enter into it and try to be a part of the governing india ... if anyone can do this .. then only we can get rid of corruption ....

2. each one us will die to see india win over pakistan .. anyday ... we want it ... we just want to see the indian cricket team cruise against pakistan .... but how many of us can really take up a carrier in that direction ????

3. we all are aware of the global warming situ and the situation of plastics ... but how many of us have stopped using plastics ??? may be not even .01 % of the educated WE ...... ??? or even less ....

4. we all do complain of dirt and shit around us ... but we forget its us who have done this ... and no one else ... no one but we are responsible for the mess around us...

5. how many of us are today ready to go into the indian air force or the army or even the navy ???? not many ... cuz they fear the loss of life ... but think what if those brave soldiers had thought the same ... or think what if gandhi and nehru had thought the same ???

then would we be here sitting and posting comments and taking part in such a competition @ blog-a-ton ??? NO ... NEVER ... EVER .... would we be freely walking on the roads .. freely singing and parting ....?? NO ....

so its a duty for all of us ... to do what we should have done decades back ....

And this is the true sense of an INDIAN DREAM for me ... and even for many else too .... a dream where we can have our own silicon-valley .... or own missiles without anyone's permission and aid .... our own army to battle the whole world ... our own google, microsoft and everything...

thanks all for being a great part of our nation ... a great part of our developing culture , society and contributing to its summit ....

if we all can really think and act wise ... we can really have an INDIAN DREAM outside jus this blog competition also ....

Jai Hind ....

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life for this moment .... and love every memory ...

everyone of us has had the bad times ....the good times....times wen we have had real tough things thrown at us that are above the caliber of our long hands to tackle ....but we battled to won.... stuffs that we never wanted to go through alone ... times when we really needed a friend , a shoulder to cry upon ... times when we just cried cuz we wanted to feel better ... times when we felt the absence of a love in our life.... a love that could have caressed us like a feather .... times when the angry dad told us to leave the home cuz we failed in our exams... times when those late night phone calls made us realize the importance of a true friend ... the necessity of being a true friend .....

the college ...time when those hostel foods were pathetic and all the group of friends starved till the early mornings until a cup of tea .... those heavenly cigarettes during the exam nights ...... those booze on a friends birthday .... those moments when we jus felt that being on a high might jus do all the evens for odds .... the misunderstandings that lead to minor fights ending up in chocolate gifts... those moments when we could endlessly listen to rock-metal music for weeks and weeks still being soft .... those moments when we had no cash ... no ATM balance ... No reserves ... and jus had lunch at a friend's expense .... those true moments when all of us felt that its better to die than strive under such ruthless and killing situations.... the jealousy in seeing a happy couple, when u r fresh out of a break-up .... the jealousy of a bestfriend over others...

those sleepless nights when u had big huge fights .... the disco discotheques with late night addictions ..... the 3 am walk on a lonely road .... the group trips with gangs .... memorable pics.... those accidents .... the hidden sex... the secret smooches .... the first puff of smoke ... the first drink... the first 'getting on a high' .... those bath-less dirty weeks ..... stinging physic with loadsa deo ... those secret crushes ... late night Maggie packets .... long Q in the hostels for the loo .... the first date ... the mass bunks ... the short-attendance lists ...

walking in the rain hands-in-hands with the beloved... those most cherished moments ....the 1st show movie tickets for black ... first tram journey ... the first flight .... the endless discussions on sex ... those porn movies ... the masturbation topics discussed with shame excitement and guilt :P .... the first sex talk on phone ....

we are all of us so fortunate to our friends who stand with us in spite of anything .. in spite of everything.. they shoulder us to the very start .. the very end ... to everywhere... they help us , tease us . beat us ... but love us ... the all of us have a history ... a past that we cant change ... a future that we can see..we cant design .... just the present to live for .. jus today to be alive .... then y waste time on the future and the past ... y not LIVE THE MOMENT ???? Y NOT DIE THE MOMENT ??? ....

lets do it today ... tell each one of them who matter to us ... thank them for making it in our lives.. for letting us in their lives .... for making it to the our pen of memories ... for letting us keep those pics.... for letting us cry ... for letting us laugh ... for giving us the smile ... for everything .... today lets be thankful and grateful to all our friends .... to all those who matter ... our parents .. our siblings .. the cousins ... the crush .. the love .... the girl-next-door ... to everyone .....

I LOVE U ALL FOR MAKING IT INTO A PART OF ME ... A PART OF WHAT I AM TODAY ....

lets spread this air of happiness ...

happy days ...

wooohooooooooo ... so many tags.... m so so thankful ....

many may not like this whole idea of tagging and stuff.. but i jus love that ... cuz tagging is just not fr fun or only as a passe. ... .. its the basic love .. affection .. a tradition in blogging mainly ... and if smeone tags us it really means that they remember us til now... and for times to come .... we are tagged cuz people know us.. and wanna know us better .... so if anyone tags me m so much excited and so much thankful to them .... and also i will follow it for every tag...

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i have been tagged for this both by guria and samadrita for this ... thanks re really ....

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes , delete mine and type in your answers and tag your friends to answer this.


Asked someone to marry you? Innocent.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? guilty

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.

Ever told a lie? innocent

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? guilt

Kissed a picture? Innocent.

Slept in until 5 PM? guilt

Fallen asleep at work/school? guilt

Held a snake? Innocent.

Been suspended from school? guilt

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.

Stolen from a store? Innocent.

Been fired from a job? Innocent.

Done something you regret? Guilty.
innocent.
Innocent.

Kissed in the rain? Innocent.

Sat on a roof top? innocent

Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Guilty.

Sang in the shower? innocent

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.

Shaved your head? Innocent.

Had a boxing membership? Innocent.

Made a boyfriend cry? Guilty.

Been in a band? Innocent.

Shot a gun? Innocent.

Donated Blood? Innocent.

Eaten alligator meat? Innocent (eww)

Eaten cheesecake? Guilty.

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Innocent.

Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty.

Been too honest? Guilty.

Ruined a surprise? Guilty.

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Innocent.

Erased someone in your friends list? innocent

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Guilty.

Joined a pageant? Innocent.

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty.

Had communication with your ex? Guilt

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent.

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilt.

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i have been really honured by each one of you for tagging me ... m jus so much thankfu l to u all... again ....i expect everyone to pick up these tags and do them..thanks

love u all ....

%% ..... 55 ..... hhmmm .. .. not exactly .... (+12)

i climbed up the mountains so tall and high
my heart thundered, and i wanted to try
i was deep into the dreams...that
i would never wake up until i fly ......

my thoughts were shattered and broken
it was the thunderous sounds of the rain.....
i sat on my couch looking through the window...
what the drizzle had in it, took away my pain .....

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i always imagine myself to be in situations when m struck very bad ... and somehow rain comes and heals the situation .... i dunno y i feel like this .... but may be cuz i love rains more than anything ....

happy new month ... to all the fella bloggers ...